yesterday went to kwang yang house to celebrate his birthday..but very boring leh..even though i know them all for a few years, they still seems stranger to me..y is that so? actually i wanted to ton there..but is so boring thats y at bout 1 i took a cab home..the cab fare is so expensive..from jurong to aljunied..damn fucking far..it cost $26.20..expensive right?my goodness..i'm gng broke le..jux nw at indulge,dulce advice me not to werk for de F1. cause is long working hours n i'm still so weak..she afraid i might jux collapse down..but i cant cancel it nw..cause already sent in my information n settle de things le..so i cant backout n oso i cant find any replacement..wad am i gng to do? if i nv werk i got no money..if i werk i might jux collapse down..wad can i do??someone help mi please..

the only sad thing is..he actually onli came to visit mi once n is de actual day..thats de 1st day..he didn't realli show concern,instead he said wad i've done had made him angry n hate mi more..haix..once i heard it,my heart shattered into pieces..n dunno how to put it back..but nw..i found alot more other friends n family cares for mi much more den he do..i know i have to put it down 1 day..n i know i could..so JIA YOU kareina..

look at this..so painful..i didnt realli take much photos..onli this to..i will take my husky photo n upload soon..below this photo is actually CJ..hu accompany 3 days n get hurt by mi biting it..haha

well..finally i gt time to post something up..let me talk bout things when i'm hospitalized..i found myself quite foolish after i done that..was regret la..i promise not to do it again n oso not to let you guys worried bout mi le..so sorry that i make all of you so worried bout mi..n oso thx for those few days you guys fork out time to come hospital to accompany..mostly i wanted to thank justin n karen..hu actually come down everyday to accompany from morning to nite..n make you guys missed out alot of things..as for my classmates..thanks for coming down n visit mi..n oso worried bout mi lyk hell..i heard that you guys almost cried out when wad happen..humph..well..mayb after this incident den i noe hu realli cares for mi n hu r not..i found myself getting more n more close to my family le..so happy..n oso my friends around mi..well..as wad everyone is telling mi that..a jungle not onli have a tree..there r more better trees outside is just that i haven find it..so just let it go when you know de tree is rot..nw..i'm feeling much more better..nut kinda feeling veri weak..cant realli eat well n cant realli take things easily..n sometimes when i was walking..found myself veri dizzy. when eating,after a few mouth i full le..n feel lyk vomiting out..nw.,have to wait for another 3-4 days..gng polyclinic to test my blood again..woah..is damn painful when de needle actually poke into my veins..luckily..i gt my CJ..haha..ps. is actually my soft toy. i bite it when i felt veri painful..yesterday i was discharge from hospital..lai aik n zhi xiang bought a husky soft toy for mi..hahax..so cute..thank you guys.. thank my lion dance brothers..bought food n dessert for me when you guys r realli veri bz werking..last but not least muz thanks my family..visit me everyday,buy things for mi to eat n drink..pay for my hospital fees..cook things for mi to eat..well..realli veri veri thankful to everyone hu actually visitedme..love you guys..

i finally just discharged from N.U.H le..nw whole body damn numb..can't realli type much..still gt vomiting n headache n oso dizzy..keep u guys update again..

yesterday midnight before i sleep,i msg him n ask him to msg mi when he wake up..bt i waited till afternoon around 1+ ask him whether he wake up already..he said he jux woke up..den i said thought he werking full shift..nw late already..den he jux replied he nw gng to work..den i said when he free msg mi or call mi..but until nw still dun have..i'm not sure whether he realli do love me or jux fooling around with my feeling..i realli felt neglected by him..is he realli bz in werk?that time during his werking time,he still can msg mi..but y not nw?wad is de difference?yesterday,when i post de last posting,my tears are running down from eyes..i know i was realli hurt by de msg he sent..but i cant do anything..that time my friend still tell me that he is a guy hu c 1 gal lyk 1 gal..i dunno whether is it true not..but i chose not to believe it.

thanks for lai aik to give me such a nice clothing..                      i'm gonna wear de heels i bought from image turn.compatible right??

猜不透


你最近是好是坏的沉默

我也不想去追问太多

但是他为彼此的戏上了锁


猜不透

相处会比分开还寂寞

两个人都只是得过且过

无法感受每次触摸

是真的 是热的


如果乎远乎近的洒脱是你要的自由

那我宁愿回到一个人生活

如果乎冷乎热的温柔是你的借口

那我宁愿对你从没认真过


到底这感觉谁对谁错

我已经不想追求

越是在乎的人越是猜不透

finally reach hm from de cemetry thing..was veri tired..when praying,i prayed alot of things lo..but..is a secret can't tell..hahahax..
hmmm..jux nw was damn fucking worried bout him lo..since afternoon till almost midnight,none of a msg or call from him..thought wad happen to him..but luckily he msg mi finally..but the start of de msg make mi feel abit sad..he said 'u call me for wad?' haix..den nvm..after that i say tml i wanna go find him den he said he is werking full shift tml..den i said how bout after he werk? he said he is gng to st. james with his friends..den i said lyk that throw me aside lo..i thought he would reply say he would bring me along,but no! instead he said this is him..ever since i be with him he already lyk that..wow..this hurt my heart deeply..i dunno wad to say so i jux reply him that tml i go drink with my friend which is actually a lie..i dun wan to lie to him..but those words do hurt me..after a few min, clarence called mi..den he said mayb he is bgng to bring mi in..yeah..was looking forward..but dunno whether is he talking cock or seriously bringing me in??but nw de prob is..wad if i realli get to go in n i saw him grinding with other gals?i realli cant stop myself from jealousing or wad..but wad can i do??jux watch onli lo..haxi..wad a stressful day..

i'm going out very soon..so i will leave you guys now..update my blog very soon..going cemetry to pray for the 7th month thing..looking very forward..haha..abit wrong..hmmm..last but not least, this is for bi bi..
i miss you so much,when can i meet you again?? i love you. muackx..
C you guys again..bye..

This is life with my best sister of all..
Karen Ng Shu Ting, you will always be my best sister. Nobody is going to take you away from me!! you always be there for me i really veri appreciate that..i will also be there for you 24/7 whenever you need me..I LOVE YOU!!

My School Life With All My Besties...

-kareina (me)

-zhi xiang (cousin)

-lai aik (son)

-si de (*bf)

-zhi ying (best friend)

-hafiq (brother)

-altaz (*bf)

-rahman (*bf)

-daniaal (best friend)

well guys..the previous blog has been deleted by me jux because oof changing de templates..so once again i'm gng to restart this stupid blog...(irritating)okay..
how should i start..i'm veri stressful now by this veri stupid house..keep on drilling de hole on de wall when i wanted to have my afternoon nap oso cant..seriously feel lyk slapping de guy..
i wonder how is my bi bi nw..heard he was all wet when he was on de way back hm on bike..until nw he still haven reply mi msg..mayb he is sleeping bah..better nt think too much..hahahax..well i miss him so much..