on my birthday!!!

3rd june is my birthday..although not everyone celebrating with me, but i still feel veri happy..the onli thing tt disappoint mi was...my bf wasn't the one celebrating with mi..already 3 days got no sight of him..not even a message nor a phone call..dunno wad he is doing..mayb he is really damn busy..anyway..thank you guys for giving mi such a lovely birthday celebration..this year birthday i got 3 birthday cakes...1 from my cousin, 1 from aufa and 1 from my beloved ah yi and jiu jiu...im gng to genting again on de 16th with uncle lawrence and chia teck chye..so looking forward to it..but gotta earn lots and lots of money 1st...

well..gng malaysia le..but not excited leh..i'm gng to miss 1 chu shi..hmmm...is okay..not everytime can overseas de..will update my blog soon after i come back on sunday..

my whole body cannot take it anymore..gng to die liao..HHHEEELLLLPPPP!!!!
i feeling more n more empty le..realli want to give up liao..hais..i'm so helpless n useless..y muz my relationship life so complicated??cant i be jux a normal gal??i hate my stupid fucking life..

wad should i do??

u wan mi to wait n i let others wait..wad am i gng to do??continue to wait and waste my time??should i just give up n give others a chance?? is not tt i dun wanna wait..is jux tt how long u wan mi to wait??i asked alot of times le..but thr is still no answer from u..sometimes i realli wanted to give up..but whenever i see u..i jux cant..some one pls help mi..god please give mi direction..im so confused n helpless..

i just dun understand y guys lyk to show their dick to other gals in webcam??aren't they ashame bout it?
wad if their gf using msn n other guys show their gf..how would they feel??
can u guys jux stop doing tt..is realli veri irritating n digusting..stop throwing guys face..

just got a news tt said wave house is not a mix age party le..sian..18 n above den can go.i was so looking forward lo..but dun tink will go le bah..thursday is gng to be my tiring day..morning 7.30 chu shi, after tt rush to sch..den evening 6pm still gotta work..hope wont be bz so i can go home rest..my stupid irritating sore eyes so haven heal..so fedup!!aaarrrggghhh..sunday meeting jack go out shop..haha..wanna shop for my new year clothes le..was soo shock when my uncle gave mi money to buy new year clothes..
next week is chinese new year le..i'm gng to take 1 week mc jux for chu shi n claim from them..onli first day of chinese new year i gng to my relative place..dunno how many ang bao i can get..hope alot..

its been long since i last update my blog..i've been veri bz until i almost forget everything i shld do..i'm so tired of working n studying at de same time  le..but wad can i do?? if i dun work how am i suppose to survive?? now i think due to de weather i got sore eyes..so long le..still cant cure..everyday got to wear shades..i wanted to stay at home everyday until my sore eyes is ok lo..but too bad i cant..dunno y nowadays i go sch n slp..mayb im jux too tired..or mayb i'm sick?? i started to pon class again le..sick n tired of de lesson..ong herr bok lesson ir so damn boring..i gt mood swing le la..abit abit i angry le..dunno wad is wrong with me..think is de stupid hot weather make me fedup..
i miss de redcurrent pie..is so nice..before jack let mi try, i dun realli dare to eat lo..but after trying it..i'm kinda addicted le..haha..
everyday during lunch break, went to west mall with my classmates..playing hide n seek with 'this' irritating guy..he is realli a super duper stalker..no matter how we run away from him, he still can find us..OMG!! ying hun bu san..scary..haha..
new year coming soon..gonna be more busy with lion dance le..hope can get alot of angbao this year..$$$
looking forward to wavehouse event n coming chushi..

i wanted to give up my life..2010 is not a gd year for mi..everything so sux..nth goes rite..everything made mi feels so uncomfortable..im crying in my heart everyday..but nobody knows it..im jux acting strong infront of everybody..so as not to let them worried bout mi...but who knows i'm realli xin ku? no one..