It's been so damn long ever since I've updated this blog.. Well after all stupid stuff I've done, think through life still have to go on.. Had been working in R.C.A before.. Met a guy at boatquay memories bar which I think he will be my life partner. After all I gave up so much things because of him.. E.g: lion dance, clubbing, sin tua stuff, working in R.C.A...
I dun mind giving up those stuff but still I will miss them.. Especially lion dance and sin tua stuff.. They are actually my life before. But he doesnt like me doing and going for it. He dun support me at all.. But I know wad he actually wants.. Just a simple life for both of us.. After a big big quarrel, he finally agree to my conditions. Support my lion dance troupe by going to big events hold by them. As for sin tua stuff, he's still considering..
For a normal couple, quarrel is just a very small matter. It makes us know each other better den before.. Well... It's been almost 4 months I've been together with him, on the valentine day, he gave me a super big surprise which is proposing to me using a very magical way. It's hard to explain, but I'm really touched on that day! In these 4 months time, he never fail giving me wad I wan, he is always putting his 101% of love for me.. And I do love him alot.. More than I could expect! Wad ever things he said I will take it to heart.. I think this is wad I called true love, path to marriage. Although we just got together not long, but time doesn't matters.. As long as we understand each other, marriage is not a problem.. After all this typing, I still haven intro who is this hero who save my life from being more miserable.. Alex chan wei qiang(my Fiance)
Thank you so much for making me feel secure, pampered and love! Lao gong, I love you!!

on my birthday!!!

3rd june is my birthday..although not everyone celebrating with me, but i still feel veri happy..the onli thing tt disappoint mi was...my bf wasn't the one celebrating with mi..already 3 days got no sight of him..not even a message nor a phone call..dunno wad he is doing..mayb he is really damn busy..anyway..thank you guys for giving mi such a lovely birthday celebration..this year birthday i got 3 birthday cakes...1 from my cousin, 1 from aufa and 1 from my beloved ah yi and jiu jiu...im gng to genting again on de 16th with uncle lawrence and chia teck chye..so looking forward to it..but gotta earn lots and lots of money 1st...

well..gng malaysia le..but not excited leh..i'm gng to miss 1 chu shi..hmmm...is okay..not everytime can overseas de..will update my blog soon after i come back on sunday..

my whole body cannot take it anymore..gng to die liao..HHHEEELLLLPPPP!!!!
i feeling more n more empty le..realli want to give up liao..hais..i'm so helpless n useless..y muz my relationship life so complicated??cant i be jux a normal gal??i hate my stupid fucking life..

wad should i do??

u wan mi to wait n i let others wait..wad am i gng to do??continue to wait and waste my time??should i just give up n give others a chance?? is not tt i dun wanna wait..is jux tt how long u wan mi to wait??i asked alot of times le..but thr is still no answer from u..sometimes i realli wanted to give up..but whenever i see u..i jux cant..some one pls help mi..god please give mi direction..im so confused n helpless..

i just dun understand y guys lyk to show their dick to other gals in webcam??aren't they ashame bout it?
wad if their gf using msn n other guys show their gf..how would they feel??
can u guys jux stop doing tt..is realli veri irritating n digusting..stop throwing guys face..

just got a news tt said wave house is not a mix age party le..sian..18 n above den can go.i was so looking forward lo..but dun tink will go le bah..thursday is gng to be my tiring day..morning 7.30 chu shi, after tt rush to sch..den evening 6pm still gotta work..hope wont be bz so i can go home rest..my stupid irritating sore eyes so haven heal..so fedup!!aaarrrggghhh..sunday meeting jack go out shop..haha..wanna shop for my new year clothes le..was soo shock when my uncle gave mi money to buy new year clothes..
next week is chinese new year le..i'm gng to take 1 week mc jux for chu shi n claim from them..onli first day of chinese new year i gng to my relative place..dunno how many ang bao i can get..hope alot..

its been long since i last update my blog..i've been veri bz until i almost forget everything i shld do..i'm so tired of working n studying at de same time  le..but wad can i do?? if i dun work how am i suppose to survive?? now i think due to de weather i got sore eyes..so long le..still cant cure..everyday got to wear shades..i wanted to stay at home everyday until my sore eyes is ok lo..but too bad i cant..dunno y nowadays i go sch n slp..mayb im jux too tired..or mayb i'm sick?? i started to pon class again le..sick n tired of de lesson..ong herr bok lesson ir so damn boring..i gt mood swing le la..abit abit i angry le..dunno wad is wrong with me..think is de stupid hot weather make me fedup..
i miss de redcurrent pie..is so nice..before jack let mi try, i dun realli dare to eat lo..but after trying it..i'm kinda addicted le..haha..
everyday during lunch break, went to west mall with my classmates..playing hide n seek with 'this' irritating guy..he is realli a super duper stalker..no matter how we run away from him, he still can find us..OMG!! ying hun bu san..scary..haha..
new year coming soon..gonna be more busy with lion dance le..hope can get alot of angbao this year..$$$
looking forward to wavehouse event n coming chushi..

i wanted to give up my life..2010 is not a gd year for mi..everything so sux..nth goes rite..everything made mi feels so uncomfortable..im crying in my heart everyday..but nobody knows it..im jux acting strong infront of everybody..so as not to let them worried bout mi...but who knows i'm realli xin ku? no one..

today yew keng was veri shag..1st time play drum on de lorry..my hands now no strength le..somemore today raining lyk hell..my whole body wet lyk fuck..i think i gng to sick le..yea!!! lyk tt can claim mc dun nid go sch..hahahax..tml have to move alot of heavy things,dunno i can endure not..hope wont collapse..realli wish tt monday we gt de chance to go for de kai mu of pub..should be real fun..gtg..good nite guys..update soon..

tired tired tired..finally our grand yew keng is over..everyone realli put in all our effort..been through blood n sweat..its a successful night..i realli do enjoy de fun n interesting night..not only on yew keng..but song shui too..let mi show u de photos of our procession lorry..is realli veri nice unti i cant keep my eyes off it..when night time,which is time to demolished de lorry, i realli cant bear to do it..but no choice..we have to..cause we got no place to parked it..after u guys have seen those photos, pls give some comments..

these few days realli damn busy..lion dance yew keng was de most shag day..from morning 8am all de way until midnight 2am..but was realli very fun la..especially gt chao yang enough liao..he was de most noisiest n rubbish guy in yu hong..hahahax..upcoming event will be on monday night. for jiu wang ye..jia you yu hong..on wed n thurs i went down to bugis street (S27) to werk..was actually helping my boss la..oso shag..my leg veri sour lo..hahax..mayb i too long never werk le bah..den after werk,nigel actually accompany mi hm..thank you AH NAI!!waiting for next friday..ECP, muz have surprise...i still deciding whr to go ltr..aceton birthday celebration or yu hong decorating flower car?? hmmm..dunno la..walk one step is one step lo...k la..i wan slp le guys..nitex..muackx..

tis is last friday at jab1..celebrating karen sister's birthday..i drank too much n vomit blood out..so i have to stop drinking already..

kinda busy this few days so no time to post..so sorry guys..hmmm..busy werking almost everyday..1st was de stupid f1 thingy..werk from evening 6pm till morning 6am..$5.50 per hour but no OT..
shit right? some more de last day of werk i was sacked..but dunno y..heard from 1 of my friend is because they wanna cut cost thats y..after that f1 thingy..i have to werk at the indulge from monday to thursday..den friday gt lion dance. saturday werk again..onli sunday i gt my own time to rest n relax..today after werking at the indulge,i went to watch movie with karen n some friends i knew from de f1..but they are werking as server..so i dun realli noe them well..all of them are actually quite a joker..hahax..nice knowing them..

yesterday went to kwang yang house to celebrate his birthday..but very boring leh..even though i know them all for a few years, they still seems stranger to me..y is that so? actually i wanted to ton there..but is so boring thats y at bout 1 i took a cab home..the cab fare is so expensive..from jurong to aljunied..damn fucking far..it cost $26.20..expensive right?my goodness..i'm gng broke le..jux nw at indulge,dulce advice me not to werk for de F1. cause is long working hours n i'm still so weak..she afraid i might jux collapse down..but i cant cancel it nw..cause already sent in my information n settle de things le..so i cant backout n oso i cant find any replacement..wad am i gng to do? if i nv werk i got no money..if i werk i might jux collapse down..wad can i do??someone help mi please..

the only sad thing is..he actually onli came to visit mi once n is de actual day..thats de 1st day..he didn't realli show concern,instead he said wad i've done had made him angry n hate mi more..haix..once i heard it,my heart shattered into pieces..n dunno how to put it back..but nw..i found alot more other friends n family cares for mi much more den he do..i know i have to put it down 1 day..n i know i could..so JIA YOU kareina..

look at this..so painful..i didnt realli take much photos..onli this to..i will take my husky photo n upload soon..below this photo is actually CJ..hu accompany 3 days n get hurt by mi biting it..haha

well..finally i gt time to post something up..let me talk bout things when i'm hospitalized..i found myself quite foolish after i done that..was regret la..i promise not to do it again n oso not to let you guys worried bout mi le..so sorry that i make all of you so worried bout mi..n oso thx for those few days you guys fork out time to come hospital to accompany..mostly i wanted to thank justin n karen..hu actually come down everyday to accompany from morning to nite..n make you guys missed out alot of things..as for my classmates..thanks for coming down n visit mi..n oso worried bout mi lyk hell..i heard that you guys almost cried out when wad happen..humph..well..mayb after this incident den i noe hu realli cares for mi n hu r not..i found myself getting more n more close to my family le..so happy..n oso my friends around mi..well..as wad everyone is telling mi that..a jungle not onli have a tree..there r more better trees outside is just that i haven find it..so just let it go when you know de tree is rot..nw..i'm feeling much more better..nut kinda feeling veri weak..cant realli eat well n cant realli take things easily..n sometimes when i was walking..found myself veri dizzy. when eating,after a few mouth i full le..n feel lyk vomiting out..nw.,have to wait for another 3-4 days..gng polyclinic to test my blood again..woah..is damn painful when de needle actually poke into my veins..luckily..i gt my CJ..haha..ps. is actually my soft toy. i bite it when i felt veri painful..yesterday i was discharge from hospital..lai aik n zhi xiang bought a husky soft toy for mi..hahax..so cute..thank you guys.. thank my lion dance brothers..bought food n dessert for me when you guys r realli veri bz werking..last but not least muz thanks my family..visit me everyday,buy things for mi to eat n drink..pay for my hospital fees..cook things for mi to eat..well..realli veri veri thankful to everyone hu actually visitedme..love you guys..

i finally just discharged from N.U.H le..nw whole body damn numb..can't realli type much..still gt vomiting n headache n oso dizzy..keep u guys update again..